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Daily Tip:
CHRIS ISAAK
"Heart Full Of Soul"
Sick at heart and lonely, deep in dark despair.
When you want her only, tell me where is she, where?
And if she says to you, that she don't love me.
Just give her my message, tell her of my plea.
And I know,
If I could have her back again.
I would never make her sad.
I got a heart... full of soul, I got a heart... full of soul.
She's been gone such a long time, longer than I can bear.
But if she says she wants me, tell her I'll be there.
And I know,
If I could have her back again.
I would never make her sad.
I got a heart... full of soul, I got a heart... full of soul.
Sick at heart and lonely, deep in dark despair.
When you want her only, tell me where is she, where?
And if she says to you, that she don't love me.
Just give her my message, tell her of my plea.
And I know,
If I could have her back again.
I would never make her sad.
I got a heart... full of soul, I got a heart... full of soul.
I got a heart.. full of soul!
CHRIS ISAAK
"Unhappiness"
I know I should try, and I do.
I know that I can't win.
But I try for you, sometimes I pretend.
I've found my happiness.
Dark is day, and the night is blue.
But darling that's alright.
Cause' I know without you, I'd be left alone.
With my unhappiness.
If you think your alone, if you think that it's wrong that you've only died inside.
Always lonely, always lonely.
If you think that it's true, that your love ain't blue, that there's nothing to do but cry.
Then your lonely, always lonely.
Don't know why I cry, but I do.
I worry over you.
And I know someday, that when this love is through.
I'll find unhappiness.
When I'm through, I'll find unhappiness.
When I'm through, I'll find unhappiness.
Daily Tip:
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| 10.30.03 (8:55 pm) [edit] |
Matchbox 20 - Yourself Or Someone Like You - Push lyrics:
she said I don't know if I've ever been good enough
I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in
and I don't know if I've ever been really loved
by a hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's
gonna give
and I'm a little bit angry, well
this ain't over, no not here, not while I still need you
around
you don't owe me, we might change
yeah we just might feel good
(chorus)
I wanna push you around, I will, I will
I wanna push you down, I will, I will
I wanna take you for granted, I wanna take you for granted
I will
she said I don't know why you ever would lie to me
like I'm a little untrusting when I think that the truth is
gonna hurt ya
and I don't know why you couldn't just stay with me
you couldn't stand to be near me
when my face don't seem to want to shine
cuz it's a little bit dirty well
don't just stand there, say nice things to me
I've been cheated I've been wronged, and you
you don't know me, I can't change
I won't do anything at all
(chorus)
oh but don't bowl me over
just wait a minute well it kinda fell apart, things get so
crazy, crazy
don't rush this baby, don't rush this baby
(chorus)
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| a lil sumthin sumthin |
| 10.29.03 (5:59 pm) [edit] |
todays reflections:
eye color:yes my eyes change color with mood. they r currently green on the outside and yellow on the inside, kinda reminds me of gold hairs bud, ahhh.
weather: clear skies, kinda cool, but feels good
night or day: i always prefer night
sexual mood: not too horny
line of the day: stupid faggot dicks are for chicks (i think it just sounds funny, dont take to big of an offense over it)
colors of clothing: about the usuall black, black and more black, with a lil green and blue.
hair: messy as fuck, just took a "nap" lol
drugs:not doin any at this very second
alcohol:shit no that shits nasty
most beautiful woman in the world: i havent found here yet, or just havent figured it out yet
most beautiful star:FUCKIN SHAKIRA!!!!
wat do u have planned for the rest of the day: hang out at the smokers table and then get high lata im shoo,
but hey ya neva no.
who created this stupid shit: me
whos gonna leave now: me
lata
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| as darkness sweeps by |
| 10.28.03 (5:41 pm) [edit] |
more of my lyrics
as darkness sweeps by
i close my eyes
i let it overcome me
it takes me away
to a far away place
and all the while,
i just want to stay
in the shadows of darkness
as it takes me under
i wonder
what if i could stay
could stay in the darkness all day
could stay down for eternity
just wishing it would overcome me
keep me still
keep my silent
in the night
and in the day
hide me, hide me away
from the searching eyes of those that are "normal"
who seems to be on time and always formal
to them everthing is bliss
but thats how ignorance is
no, im no greater than anyone else
but i wish they would open their eyes for themselves
no i dont want that, then they would be misserable too,
sad and lonely, like me and u,
wat if we could step back in time
redeem ourselves and be like swine
lead to the slaughter
yet full of laughter,
simply because they arent aware of wats happenin
until they die
the end
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| expressions of my mood |
| 10.28.03 (3:19 am) [edit] |
what happened:
i have a friend indeed
he just turned nineteen
believes he owns the world
hes wrong
if only he had known
what surrounds him
chorus:
his best friend is a killer
killing himself to live
black sabbath is coming
but have no fear
you must have no fear
mustn't live life my dear
with fear
dont let impatience trouble thee
dont worry about tomorrow
the next hour
day
any other thing
life goes on as it sees fit
you're just here for the ride
i must admit
chorus
never back down
it's not a thrill
life sucks for his friend
hes killin himself to live
and he doesnt even know it
he's just paying his parking bills
chorus
the end
another one
no name
fuck this world
fuck this life
seems as though fuck is all i have
all i own
its my life
life's what i make it
either i live it
or break it
seems as though that's what is believed
but why is this
the life i lead
so i have to steal
i have to thieve
my life away from somewhere
some one else
and then keep it
the end
and the grand finale of tonights writings
concrete
i walked upon the sidewalk thinking
here is a slab of concrete
and in between
is a crack
where i seem to be
why am i there
did i do this
is it a work of someone else
maybe a higher power
or just me
i dont have control of my life
never have
couldnt have dropped the reins
because they were never placed in my hands
i'm waiting for them to fall into my grasp
but ive found
ive got to reach down
pick em up with both hands
grab those two bands
firmly
struggling to hang on as i take the ride of my life
like fighting an unbroke stallion
fights to throw me off
fights to put me down
i tell myself i can do anything
i myself am the biggest critique
i need to stop this
this is killing me
i cant let life overcome me
i will stand
both feet planted
upon the ground
the earth moves all around
but i stand
a man
steering my life where i see fit
all i have to do is reach down
grab the reins of my life
everything that goes down
must come up
im down
bottom of the pit
this shits gonna end
gonna spring up
have a shinning life
i will be on top
all i have to do is reach down
and ride the life that i have found
ever thing that i have ever put on this blog are completely works of my mind, unless otherwise stated.
thank you,
james
fucking
shrum
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| why is it that some ppl run |
| 10.28.03 (2:52 am) [edit] |
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ppl that r insecure run from u when u try to be friendly, all i ask is to be friendly to ppl in the hope that ppl will be friendly to me, but apparently that does not work here.
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| dolphins cry |
| 10.28.03 (1:35 am) [edit] |
Live - The Distance To Here - The Dolphin's Cry lyrics:
The way you're bathed in light
reminds me of that night
god laid me down into your rose garden of trust
and I was swept away
with nothin' left to say
some helpless fool
yeah I was lost in a swoon of peace
you're all I need to find
so when the time is right
come to me sweetly, come to me
come to me
love will lead us, alright
love will lead us, she will lead us
can you hear the dolphin's cry?
see the road rise up to meet us
it's in the air we breathe tonight
love will lead us, she will lead us
oh yeah, we meet again
it's like we never left
time in between was just a dream
did we leave this place?
this crazy fog surrounds me
you wrap your legs around me
all I can do to try and breathe
let me breathe so that I
so we can go together!
love will lead us, alright
love will lead us, she will lead us
can you hear the dolphin's cry?
see the road rise up to meet us
it's in the air we breathe tonight
love will lead us, she will lead us
life is like a shooting star
it don't matter who you are
if you only run for cover, it's just a waste of time
we are lost 'til we are found
this phoenix rises up from the ground
and all these wars are over
over
over
singin' la da da, da da da
over
come to me
singin' la da da da, da da da
come to me
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| life |
| 10.28.03 (12:43 am) [edit] |
life seems to have left my neighborhood, no im not suicidal, if any one has anything to worry about, its those around me. and they have nothing to worry about.
now to my blog.
life, it seems to stand still and look me in the face
and say hahahaha, fuck u, u cant have me
never again shall u no try happiness
ur too smart, u are not shallow
only those that act happy seem to have no depth,
true happiness comes to those that are deep
deep in there sins
deep in there minds
deep in there souls
and true happiness rarely ever happens
that is, if it even exists
i find myself wondering
if i will ever find happiness
ever find love
not just any love
but true, true love
does it exist, i do not know
but i do care
i wish that i could find a reason of being
of being here, with out love
in so much depression,
i need out
i used drugs to do so
but i does not work
only makes worse
after the effects wear off ur back where ya began
finding urself lonely and depressed once again
who knows, well some would say God does
does He, is HE just another one of us
after all we were made in His likeness
i am lost
only to be found
just waiting to be found
if youve never felt this way,
i appluade u
i wish i could go back to thinking everything is grand
after all ignorance is bliss
if u think that way, then to u nothing is wrong
with knowledge comes responsiblity
burdens and heart ache
pain and suffering
and u can never turn around and go back
oh how i long to return to the stupidity that i once had.
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| 10.26.03 (2:31 am) [edit] |
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| I NEED HELP!!!!!!!!!! |
| 10.24.03 (2:38 am) [edit] |
this is a cry for help, im lost and clueless.
im dazed and confused.
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| what is the true meaning of life. |
| 10.24.03 (2:35 am) [edit] |
:?: i seem to be stumbling around aimlessly, i have seem to have no goals, my life has seemed to stop almost. nothing excites me anymore, everything is BLAH. i seem to have no reason to be on this earth.
what is life, how should it be lived, and what is the meaning of life?
and last but not least, do u believe everyone has a reason to be alive. if so, i cant seem to find mine, which leads to the hated word "why".
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| why? |
| 10.24.03 (1:33 am) [edit] |
why?
:twisted: i hate that fucking word, there is no other word in this world that is annoying as the word "why".
why u ask?
because its over used,
think about how many times u say it a day, or use other words to simply stay away from it.
why, what for, how come, etc, etc, the list goes one
oh i friggin hate it.
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| today |
| 10.23.03 (4:27 am) [edit] |
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its only the morning, but ive already accomplished a full days task, i soothed my wants and needs already and i think ill sleep for the rest of the day.
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| today |
| 10.22.03 (2:54 pm) [edit] |
i skipped every class today, for no reason.
i smoked my self stupid, yea, i guess that is a reason.
things are seeming to fade in front of me and i cant do shit about it. or at least i havent figured out how yet.
im goin insane.
fuckin insane.
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| an old one |
| 10.22.03 (2:55 am) [edit] |
heres something i wrote a while ago.
Looked outside this morning
Didn’t wanna move
Kept on yawning
No way in hell I was gonna grove
For today was yet another normal day
Wanted to end life over the weekend
A friend gets married, I wasn’t invited
That kinda shit make ya think they r not ur friend
Hell I didn’t mind
Woulda felt weird anyway
Outta place
Outta time
Did shrooms for the first time
Got wasted with some of the finest moonshine
Then again, I couldn’t even taste or smell weed
That’s something I don’t need
Even as I write this song
My hearing is going in and out
The shrooms are taking over and making me fell on
Its about that time
Live your life the way u want
Live your life the way u like
Live to the fullest and u wont
Live life the way u try
Fuck
Shit
Bitch
Words coming into my mind at random
Reminds me of someone with terets
I might fall and bust my head and need a stitch
My head hurts
My neck aches
I long for a friend, a woman, I have had to search
I come empty handed and yet I still go on
I will till I find them and then ill hit the brakes
But live your life
Die trying
But sometimes its like ur back and a knife
But don’t go down crying
Live your life the way u want
Live your life the way u like
Live to the fullest and u wont
Live life the way u try
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| the mind |
| 10.22.03 (2:45 am) [edit] |
the mind wanders aimlessly like a drunken man,
wanders around until it cant stand any more,
sometimes finds itself running into walls,
wonders if it has enough balls,
to stand up and say what needs to be,
walks into a wall and falls down,
runs over a park bench then frowns,
cause theres so much pain inside,
sometimes u just have to start running,
jumping over those things that was stumbled upon,
but where can that motivation be,
cause it has seemed to left me,
i dont know where to go,
i dont no wat i should say,
what i should no, is not ur name ,
but who u r,
and how u remain strong who r u,
who r we,
who am i,
what can this mean,
sometimes we get lost inthought,
and cant move on,
but thats why the mind seems to be,
in so much agony.
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messengers:
y messenger: grungyalf
aim: ballbreaking alf
msn mess: alfinator37387@hotmail.com
this is more or less another chris isaak page. the man says it all.
CHRIS ISAAK
"You Took My Heart"
Under the sun there are many pretty things,
You talk of love and the happiness it brings.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
Under the sky there are many pretty girls,
But there's not one that can help me in this world.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
Well I'm sitting here alone tonight and I'm thinking about you.
Wondering if it's wrong or right to be dreaming about you oh.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
Well I'm sitting here alone tonight and I'm thinking about you.
Wondering if it's wrong or right to be dreaming about you oh.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
There will be no love for me, there will be no love for me.
No love for me, no love for me, no love for me.
CHRIS ISAAK
"Lie To Me"
There is a woman, far over the sea.
Standing and waiting, praying for me.
Here I lie sleeping, a girl by my side.
Who am I hurting, each time I lie?
Lie to me, lie.....
Lie to me, lie.....
There is a woman, trying hard to be brave.
The way that I hurt her, has made her afraid.
Things that I'm doing, are breaking her heart.
Still she's pretending, that we'll never part.
Lie to me, lie.....
Lie to me, lie.....
I don't care what people may say, I know everybody lies.
I'm not trying to hurt my love, I'm only trying to get by.
There is a woman, far over the sea.
Standing and waiting, praying for me.
Here I lie guilty, a girl by my side.
Who am I hurting, each time I lie?
Lie to me, lie.....
Lie to me, lie.....
Lie to me, lie.....
Lie to me, lie.....
CHRIS ISAAK
"Tears"
Tears, all night long.
That's ok, I'm not strong.
I'm not strong enough, to live without her.
When will my baby see, how much she means to me?
When will my baby know, how much I love her?
I'm not strong enough, to live without her.
Whoa.........Whoa........Oh
Tears, all night long.
That's ok, I'm not strong.
I'm not strong enough, to live without her.
When will my baby see, how much she means to me?
When will my baby know, how much I love her?
I'm not strong enough, to live without her.
Whoa.........Whoa........Oh.........
CHRIS ISAAK
"Fade Away"
Flowers and Gardens, abandoned from view.
Cry for their love, like I do.
People throw their love to whisper, think of all the boys who've kissed her.
But to me it doesn't matter they, fade away, they fade away.
Fade away.
When we meet we fell together, now she's gone I can't forget her.
Love is chance but time won't let her, fade away and fade away.
Fade away, fade away.
Alot of flowers in this world are never seen.
I wanna hold you love, I wanna win your love for me.
Fade away.
For me there was no sunshine, for me there was no rain.
For me until I meet you, every day was the same.
Fade away, fade away, fade away.
Fade away, fade away, fade away, fade away.
Fade, fade, fade, fade away
Fade......away, fade away, fade away, fade away, fade away, fade away.
CHRIS ISAAK
"I See You Everywhere"
You've been telling everybody
How much you love me
But I don't know, I don't know
You throw your arms around me
Tell me that you missed me
Is that so, I don't know
'Cause I see you everywhere
And you're always on my mind
And I see you everywhere
No more crying now, no more crying
And I'm hoping that you want me
Like you've been saying but I don't know if it's so
When you put your arms around me
I close my eyes believing but is it so, baby I don't know
I see you everywhere
And you're always on my mind
And I see you everywhere
Baby, no more crying now
'Cause I see you everywhere
And you're always on my mind
And I see you everywhere
No more crying now
Baby, no more crying now
CHRIS ISAAK
"Please"
I keep listening, very quietly.
You're discussing, your philosophy.
There's a long list, of what's wrong with me.
And you go on talking endlessly.... now
What's the problem?
What's the question?
What's the answer?
Where's this heading?
You keep talking.
Where's it going?
If there's an answer I don't know it...
Please
You're killing me.
Please
You're killing me with all these questions.
I've been trying to get along with you.
Doesn't matter what I try to do.
Once you start in
there's no stopping you... now
What's the problem?
What's the question?
What's the answer?
Where's this heading?
You keep talking.
Where's it going?
If there's an answer I don't know it...
Please
You're killing me.
Please
You're killing me with all these questions.
You're explaining, very patiently.
I'm a problem, what to do with me.
I keep listening, but i just don't see now.
What's the problem?
What's the question?
What's the answer?
Where's this heading?
You keep talking.
Where's it going?
If there's an answer I don't know it...
Please
You're killing me.
Please
You're killing me with all these questions.
Please, Please, Please
Please, Please
You're killing me.
You're killing me
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