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Daily Tip:
CHRIS ISAAK
"Heart Full Of Soul"
Sick at heart and lonely, deep in dark despair.
When you want her only, tell me where is she, where?
And if she says to you, that she don't love me.
Just give her my message, tell her of my plea.
And I know,
If I could have her back again.
I would never make her sad.
I got a heart... full of soul, I got a heart... full of soul.
She's been gone such a long time, longer than I can bear.
But if she says she wants me, tell her I'll be there.
And I know,
If I could have her back again.
I would never make her sad.
I got a heart... full of soul, I got a heart... full of soul.
Sick at heart and lonely, deep in dark despair.
When you want her only, tell me where is she, where?
And if she says to you, that she don't love me.
Just give her my message, tell her of my plea.
And I know,
If I could have her back again.
I would never make her sad.
I got a heart... full of soul, I got a heart... full of soul.
I got a heart.. full of soul!
CHRIS ISAAK
"Unhappiness"
I know I should try, and I do.
I know that I can't win.
But I try for you, sometimes I pretend.
I've found my happiness.
Dark is day, and the night is blue.
But darling that's alright.
Cause' I know without you, I'd be left alone.
With my unhappiness.
If you think your alone, if you think that it's wrong that you've only died inside.
Always lonely, always lonely.
If you think that it's true, that your love ain't blue, that there's nothing to do but cry.
Then your lonely, always lonely.
Don't know why I cry, but I do.
I worry over you.
And I know someday, that when this love is through.
I'll find unhappiness.
When I'm through, I'll find unhappiness.
When I'm through, I'll find unhappiness.
Daily Tip:
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| Living life on bought time........ |
| 11.26.03 (3:16 pm) [edit] |
think about it, how many people can actually say that they have earned their life completely. somewhere in the past they were given a second chance, maybe even a third, fourth, and so on. Or possibly, someone helped them out when they needed help.
well, i should have been dead when i was like 4 months old, i was dropped on my head, seriously. my parents said i turned blue then purple all over. so i think of my whole life except those first few months of my life as "bought time". well why ya got to be so pessimistic? because i can and i will. im happy sometimes, but its usually becuase i have no choice to be. its the after affects of others that make me happy when im actually happy, and as soon as im alone it goes a way unless i still have them on my mind, but it just isnt the same.
i just wish i could go back to the simple minded shallow kid i once was, when i didnt worry about tomorrow, only thought of today. when i didnt have to worry about gettin in trouble, because mommy and dady was there to help me out.
do we actually own anything. even the land that you own, if you own any, isnt really yours. its the governments. even though, we the people, are supposedly the government. well, how many times have you got into trouble with the government and said, "hey, i think i should have been able to do that" yea right, u can say that, but what good is it going to do you? none! we, as common people, own nothing, have accomplished nothing, and we are simply no bodies.
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| check it out! |
| 11.25.03 (6:42 am) [edit] |
and if i use the combination of james allen or james alf, then it comes out as a gay or lesbian couple, lol. always did hate my name.
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| apparently im more black than white...... |
| 11.21.03 (1:20 am) [edit] |
well i thought i was very white personally, but according to a link on Andrea's blog, i am 52% black.
lata
alf
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| noosebleeds |
| 11.19.03 (5:13 pm) [edit] |
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i have just finished sterilizing my room and bathroom from yet another noosebleed. its the second one this season, and im looking forward to many more this season. some would say that it is an ailment or a burden to have noosebleeds the way i do, i probably bleed at least 1/2 a pint all the way up to a lil over a pint sometimes. it is neither an ailment or burden, where there is blood there is purification. it washes away all sins and pain. just think, say u cut ur leg off and it didnt bleed, it would scare you even more. plus it would dry out and become very infected. well, a noosebleed simply moisturizes a dry noose and cleans it, as long as u let it bleed and get the clot out. its a great thing.
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| life |
| 11.19.03 (5:07 pm) [edit] |
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life, seems to have stopped again, some say that time heals all things, sounds great, but thats only true with a few things, but not all. life stops, i stop, everything stops, i seem to be locked away in a dungeon. the key to the door is only inches away from me on the other side of the door. shiny and smiling at me. i wonder, how can i grab that key, do i have the power to so much as touch that shining object? maybe someday i will find out.
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| another great one |
| 11.17.03 (5:13 pm) [edit] |
SWITCHFOOT
"Meant To Live"
Fumbling his confidence
And wondering why the world has passed him by
Hoping that he's bid for more than arguments
And failed attempts to fly, fly
[Chorus]
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Somewhere we live inside
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
Somewhere we live inside
Dreaming about Providence
And whether mice or men have second tries
Maybe we've been livin with our eyes half open
Maybe we're bent and broken, broken
[Chorus]
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than this world's got to offer
We want more than the wars of our fathers
And everything inside screams for second life, yeah
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live for so much more
Have we lost ourselves?
We were meant to live
We were meant to live
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| more lyrics |
| 11.14.03 (8:43 pm) [edit] |
yea, its been awhile since ive wrote any lyrics, but this is one that i kinda started in a messenger convo. finally decided to finish it.
i had a stalker,
seems like everytime
i turn around,
or make a sound
there she is
always, again and again.
yea, i couldnt live without a stalker apparently
damnit, 2 in a row, wat to do, wat to say
no one knows, but im here to stay
as the third stalker approaches
i give in
i take her notions
and i sin
i feel in love
but then again
wat is love
wat is sin
who knows
shall this ever happen again
well as i think about
all the past stalkers in my life
i shouldve been stout
and stood up and gave em a chance
gave em a shout
but im glad i didnt,
i happy with wat i have
shes great
i dont feel like a sapp
so all is well
nuff this shit
i need a nap
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| ok ok, ill post. |
| 11.14.03 (10:33 am) [edit] |
the reason why i havent posted in the last few..........my baby is sick, and ive been trying to take care of her. although, i wonder if i helped any at all sometimes, but i think i lifted her mood some. well thats all i have to say for now.
lata
alf
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| the result |
| 11.06.03 (1:28 pm) [edit] |
[image]james_1127354601.jpg[/image]
the battle wasnt won, the battle wasnt lost. a truce was called and we went our seperate ways carrying our own wounds, they will heal, peace will return in this small village and all will be well once again.
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| something funny for a change |
| 11.06.03 (2:38 am) [edit] |
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[image]james_615927339.jpg[/image]
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| battle |
| 11.05.03 (11:38 pm) [edit] |
as i go into battle
upon the morrow
my head hung low
my mind full of pain
shoulders slumped forward
i hope this never happens again
stupidity brought me out for battle
lying sealed the deal
i must not fight
i shall give in
a hopefully it will be over, this ordeal
i never wished it to end this way
never wanted her to feel such pain
all i can do now is be honest
try wat i can,
not lying,
after all it will make things worse
just tell the truth and prevent emotional dying
walk on in life with this shame
hopefully sparing her pain
not much i can do or say
except im stupid
ur right, i should be gay
punish me how u see fit
i will except it
and walk away,
buy some j
and get lit
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| harder to breath |
| 11.05.03 (8:54 pm) [edit] |
Maroon 5 Lyrics
Harder To Breathe Lyrics
How dare you say that my behavior is unacceptable
So condescending unnecessarily critical
I have the tendency of getting very physical
So watch your step cause if I do you'll need a miracle
You drain me dry and make me wonder why I'm even here
This Double Vision I was seeing is finally clear
You want to stay but you know very well I want you gone
Not fit to funkin' tread the ground I'm walking on
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
What you are doing is screwing things up inside my head
You should know better you never listened to a word I said
Clutching your pillow and writhing in a naked sweat
Hoping somebody someday will do you like I did
When it gets cold outside and you got nobody to love
You'll understand what I mean when I say
There's no way we're gonna give up
And like a little girl cries in the face of a monster that lives in her dreams
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Is there anyone out there cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe
Does it kill
Does it burn
Is it painful to learn
That it's me that has all the control
Does it thrill
Does it sting
When you feel what I bring
And you wish that you had me to hold
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| wicked game |
| 11.05.03 (3:58 pm) [edit] |
Chris Isaak - Heart Shaped World - Wicked Game lyrics:
The world was on fire
No one could save me but you.
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that i'd meet somebody like you
And i never dreamed that i'd lose somebody like you
No, i don't want to fall in love
[this love is only gonna break your heart]
No, i don't want to fall in love
[this love is only gonna break your heart]
With you
With you
What a wicked game you play
To make me feel this way
What a wicked thing to do
To let me dream of you
What a wicked thing to say
You never felt this way
What a wicked thing to do
To make me dream of you
V and i don't wanna fall in love
[this love is only gonna break your heart]
And i don't want to fall in love
[this love is only gonna break your heart]
{world} was on fire
No one could save me but you
Strange what desire will make foolish people do
I never dreamed that i'd love somebody like you
I never dreamed that i'd lose somebody like you
No i don't wanna fall in love
[this love is only gonna break your heart
No i don't wanna fall in love
[this love is only gonna break your heart]
With you
With you
Nobody loves no one
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| pain |
| 11.05.03 (12:57 pm) [edit] |
ive got to take my boots off for this one.
this is more or less freestyle, lets see wat happens.
have u ever hurt someone,
said something that made em made
u cant say shit now
cuz nothing u say will change
nothing will take away the pain
u gave this person so much anger
they spare ur life
what did u get from it, there is no gain
they seem tired, sick, down
u put them there,
u said hurtful things
some true
some false
they confided in u when they told u these things
or trusted u when they let u into their world
how did u return the kindness, the trust
u smash it with a swiftfull hand
u take any and all pride that they had left
u kill the person from inside out
u feel truly sorry, yet afraid
ashamed that u let urself do such
to a fellow human being
u treated them like an animal
how can u repay such an act of hatred
for something they didnt even do
how can u
u are a horrible person
but i am u
this is about wat i have done
wat i have said
my missdoings
my wrongfullness
never will i run from problems
but i shall hide in the shadows
when the blood stops boiling
when the heart thaws
when the mind clears
i shall return
all will be welll
i shall not abide
by others doings
i no what i have done
i have yet to accept the responsiblities thereof
but until then im gonna hide in the shadows of life.
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| my friend matt |
| 11.05.03 (1:27 am) [edit] |
well i just took this quiz, and the results sound just like my friend matt instead of me but anyways.
-Matt- You're Matt and you belong to Katy.
Actually, Kati knows very little about you
other than you're hyper and perverted. Oh well,
to each his own.
Which of "The Guys" Are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
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| time |
| 11.05.03 (1:20 am) [edit] |
how can someone not have enough time, or too much time. it is impossible.
we have all the time in the world, what we do with it is up to us or our surroundings. how we manage time supposedly saves us time, well i disagree. u cant save something u already have and have no way to loose it. we can waste time, use time, or simply not worry bout it.
dont let time run ur life.
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| i think i have fucked myself this time....... |
| 11.03.03 (6:39 pm) [edit] |
well,
ppl, wat r they? well, i dont no. BUT they are the greatest things ever. wat r we-some would say we r no more that grains of sand and dust. i wonder-if we as humans did not exist, then wat would this world be and what would be primitive in our place. those things run through my mind sometimes, but its a rare thing i think about it, but when it does, i ask myself-who r we, and why r we? but thinking these kinds of things will get me no where. does me almost as much good as it does scientist and astronomers obtaining a peice of mars.
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| fyi! |
| 11.01.03 (5:41 pm) [edit] |
ok its time to ramble a lil, i need to get some facts outta my system that i think everyone should know, now i may be wrong about some things, might even be a lil off on some things, but if u tell me im wrong im gonna want ya to prove me so. thank you.
the male penis can be doubled, maybe even tripled by way of surgery and still be fully functional, but it only lengthens it, and lets face it, it would be better fatter than longer, usually.
the female clit is at least 5" in length on average on the inside of her body, every so often ull hear about a woman that has a dick like clit sticking out, well its natural, just comin out to say hello. also, this means that it is possible for some men to have smaller dicks than their women's clits. lol
i read someones blog on here, cant remember from whom it came, but it stated that a woman that drinks sperm once/twice a week and does fellatio has a 40% more of a chance that she will not get breast cancer.
i will add more later.
this is all the time i have for now,
questions, comments, let me have em.
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messengers:
y messenger: grungyalf
aim: ballbreaking alf
msn mess: alfinator37387@hotmail.com
this is more or less another chris isaak page. the man says it all.
CHRIS ISAAK
"You Took My Heart"
Under the sun there are many pretty things,
You talk of love and the happiness it brings.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
Under the sky there are many pretty girls,
But there's not one that can help me in this world.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
Well I'm sitting here alone tonight and I'm thinking about you.
Wondering if it's wrong or right to be dreaming about you oh.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
Well I'm sitting here alone tonight and I'm thinking about you.
Wondering if it's wrong or right to be dreaming about you oh.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
You took my heart, you took my heart from me.
There will be no love for me, there will be no love for me.
No love for me, no love for me, no love for me.
CHRIS ISAAK
"Lie To Me"
There is a woman, far over the sea.
Standing and waiting, praying for me.
Here I lie sleeping, a girl by my side.
Who am I hurting, each time I lie?
Lie to me, lie.....
Lie to me, lie.....
There is a woman, trying hard to be brave.
The way that I hurt her, has made her afraid.
Things that I'm doing, are breaking her heart.
Still she's pretending, that we'll never part.
Lie to me, lie.....
Lie to me, lie.....
I don't care what people may say, I know everybody lies.
I'm not trying to hurt my love, I'm only trying to get by.
There is a woman, far over the sea.
Standing and waiting, praying for me.
Here I lie guilty, a girl by my side.
Who am I hurting, each time I lie?
Lie to me, lie.....
Lie to me, lie.....
Lie to me, lie.....
Lie to me, lie.....
CHRIS ISAAK
"Tears"
Tears, all night long.
That's ok, I'm not strong.
I'm not strong enough, to live without her.
When will my baby see, how much she means to me?
When will my baby know, how much I love her?
I'm not strong enough, to live without her.
Whoa.........Whoa........Oh
Tears, all night long.
That's ok, I'm not strong.
I'm not strong enough, to live without her.
When will my baby see, how much she means to me?
When will my baby know, how much I love her?
I'm not strong enough, to live without her.
Whoa.........Whoa........Oh.........
CHRIS ISAAK
"Fade Away"
Flowers and Gardens, abandoned from view.
Cry for their love, like I do.
People throw their love to whisper, think of all the boys who've kissed her.
But to me it doesn't matter they, fade away, they fade away.
Fade away.
When we meet we fell together, now she's gone I can't forget her.
Love is chance but time won't let her, fade away and fade away.
Fade away, fade away.
Alot of flowers in this world are never seen.
I wanna hold you love, I wanna win your love for me.
Fade away.
For me there was no sunshine, for me there was no rain.
For me until I meet you, every day was the same.
Fade away, fade away, fade away.
Fade away, fade away, fade away, fade away.
Fade, fade, fade, fade away
Fade......away, fade away, fade away, fade away, fade away, fade away.
CHRIS ISAAK
"I See You Everywhere"
You've been telling everybody
How much you love me
But I don't know, I don't know
You throw your arms around me
Tell me that you missed me
Is that so, I don't know
'Cause I see you everywhere
And you're always on my mind
And I see you everywhere
No more crying now, no more crying
And I'm hoping that you want me
Like you've been saying but I don't know if it's so
When you put your arms around me
I close my eyes believing but is it so, baby I don't know
I see you everywhere
And you're always on my mind
And I see you everywhere
Baby, no more crying now
'Cause I see you everywhere
And you're always on my mind
And I see you everywhere
No more crying now
Baby, no more crying now
CHRIS ISAAK
"Please"
I keep listening, very quietly.
You're discussing, your philosophy.
There's a long list, of what's wrong with me.
And you go on talking endlessly.... now
What's the problem?
What's the question?
What's the answer?
Where's this heading?
You keep talking.
Where's it going?
If there's an answer I don't know it...
Please
You're killing me.
Please
You're killing me with all these questions.
I've been trying to get along with you.
Doesn't matter what I try to do.
Once you start in
there's no stopping you... now
What's the problem?
What's the question?
What's the answer?
Where's this heading?
You keep talking.
Where's it going?
If there's an answer I don't know it...
Please
You're killing me.
Please
You're killing me with all these questions.
You're explaining, very patiently.
I'm a problem, what to do with me.
I keep listening, but i just don't see now.
What's the problem?
What's the question?
What's the answer?
Where's this heading?
You keep talking.
Where's it going?
If there's an answer I don't know it...
Please
You're killing me.
Please
You're killing me with all these questions.
Please, Please, Please
Please, Please
You're killing me.
You're killing me
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